I wish I could do it
I really wish I could
Write an uplifting blog today
A tale of hope and inspiration
Commiseration of the everyday struggle
Wrapped up in a neat little package of positivity at the bottom.
But I can't
I just can't find that girl today
Lack of sleep, medication problems and marital discord have taken her away.
My rational mind tells me there is hope
I have experienced it first hand
I have felt it
I know it exists!
But today my head cannot override my heart
And my heart hurts
It is angry
Overflowing with loss and sorrow
Health, normalcy and freedom
From pain, drugs and the big fat tears
Rolling down my face
I can't keep up anymore
Doubted, blamed and thwarted
And really, I don't even want to
No more pretend.
I am sorry my friends
Truly I am
I gave it my best shot today
And this is what I have to give
I know you understand.