I woke up this morning at 9:30. I was in so much pain. I set the alarm for 10:00, trying to avoid getting out of bed but still pretending I was an adult that would get out of bed. I pushed snooze for 1 hour. When I finally roused myself around 11:30 it was to drag the computer back to bed where I stayed until about 1:30. Took Yorkie & Porkie on a nice long walk and finally had breakfast around 2. I am just pouring my coffee now, as my husband arrives home from work and the gym. Business to take care of around the house, dinner, TV and its time for bed. So today basically turned into a non-day. A day sucked into the abyss of lost days where nothing gets done.
Finding the balance of productivity and rest, forgiveness and expectation, is the core strategy of managing this illness. Not every day can be the one described above, but hectic with frantic energy does not work either. So I am laying down my guilt bag and allowing myself to have a day where I feel like crap and nothing gets done. Tomorrow I can return to the land of expectation and productivity. But as for today I am going to bed right now, at 8:40!
Thanks for joining,
Leah
